I think it’s obvious that the best part of my 2014 had nothing to do with this blog, fitness, food, or work.
Tim and I got engaged smack in the middle of a year we’ve dubbed as our year of weddings. Even though we had 6 weddings in 2012 and 7 weddings in 2013, we had 8 in 2014 (one was in Missouri that only Tim could make it to). So much of last year was spent celebrating eight amazing couples, including some of my best friends in the whole world. It got a bit crazy at times, and I’m still not quite sure how we did it, but I wouldn’t change it. We are lucky to have so many wonderful friends in our lives, and we created so many memories during all the showers, bachelorette and bachelor parties, rehearsal dinners, and weddings that filled our latter part of the year. I’m only sad that I didn’t have the chance to recap each wedding and wedding related event how I would have liked to on F&F!
Aside from all the wedding fun, some of my other favorite parts of last year include:
my April trip to Chicago with Ashley and Jen,
tons of other gym friend fun,
running my first obstacle 5k,
a Memorial Day getaway to Falmouth,
going to the Boston Magazine health and wellness retreat,
having a week off over the 4th of July to spend at home with each other,
becoming an official wellness coordinator at work,
spending my 29th birthday in Newburyport,
picking our wedding venue,
and spending some time in our happy place.
That’s what comes to mind first.
The time spent with Tim.
The time spent with all our friends.
And the time spent with family.
The things that DON’T come to mind right away when I think about last year?
–The nights worrying about getting everything done
–The time spent feeling anxious about my messy apartment
–My type A to do lists
–All the stress and frustration from work
–Feeling like I *should* post something on F&F every day
You guys get the idea. And yet, I know that I wasted so many nights just worrying, worrying again, and then worrying some more. I get so wrapped up in this idea of perfection, being able to do it all, and being able to do it all RIGHT NOW. It’s crippling sometimes. When you look at someone else’s highlight reel and think they must have their shit so perfectly together and organized, let me tell you, it’s not always the case. So many people ask me how I do it all, and you know what? I don’t. I make sacrifices. I have bad days.
I mess up.
So many of the pictures from last year capture the feelings we were feeling at the very moment the camera went off. They show us living in the moment. And I want to do more of that for the rest of 2015. I want to stop thinking about the next place I have to be, the next meal I need to prepare, and the next thing I have to do. I don’t want to feel bogged down by too many commitments, emails, and too many people asking me to do things. I want to put my phone down. I want to leave work undone if it’s too stressful at the moment. I want to leave the dishes in the sink and a let a blog post go unwritten.
I want to create more space and just enjoy being present.
I want to plan our wedding and actually relish in the experience together, not rush it.
But I know I can’t have everything and do everything at the same time.
I just need to remind myself that when I look back like I enjoy doing around this time each year, it’s not all the time spent worrying I’m going to remember.
What I’m going to remember are all the times truly spent living in the moment.
Readers, let’s chat! What are your tips for being present and living in the moment? How do you control endless worrying or always thinking about what’s next on your to do list?